super grouchy
i stopped blogging for a while coz i realised, one, i had zero motivation, two, i was complaining all the time, but i really need a channel to let all the complains out! and blog just does it for me..
life looks sad right now.. one hand there is this excitement that am finally going back home in less than 50 days, on the other, the dread thats dawns as exams come nearer and i cant study much. and people.. well people are as boring, unsupportive, uninterested, and selfish as ever.. i know if u reading this, u are one of them.. why? i ask u? whats ur problem eh? why dun u bother to understand me? even try? just take me for granted, just as i show myself to be.. am sick of keeping ppl happy, i feel like i will murder someone soon, am turning into an insomniac, all i do i waste time, and do nothing. i have stopped attending tutorials! i try study a bit, doesnt work out. am eating irregularly, am eating crap, just bought an ipod which is the only reason to be alive right now, coz am dying. ipod made me broke altogether, so no money! am sick of taking wrong turns in lfe, am sick of making frens and then breaking off, am also sick of making efforts to maintain the frneships. why do i have to do everything? all efforts gone waste. am sick of the food here, cant take it anymore, am sick of feeling sick all the time.. i fall ill so often these days, am not taking care of myself, coz m sick of making an efffort to take care of myself, have become as lazy as i cud ever be, as procrastinating as anyone can be.. restless
am making reckless decisions, asking right questions to right ppl at the wrong time, am disappointing lots of ppl.. within one week, i have been in so many situations where i almost lost my frenship with people coz of what i said or did.. but u know what, i cant help it.. i cant help it coz i dun care anymore.. all i want is some peace, some stability, some relief..my peace of mind is important, and if u think am being selfish, am sorry! all i want is someone who doesnt give a damn to wat i am but likes me coz of who i am.. i dun eve feel like re reading this blog.. i dun wanna know what i have written. ignore all of the above, strictly for my letting it ot purpose. do not ask me later why i wrote all this.. coz i dun know! i wish i cud write a happy blog sometime..
life looks sad right now.. one hand there is this excitement that am finally going back home in less than 50 days, on the other, the dread thats dawns as exams come nearer and i cant study much. and people.. well people are as boring, unsupportive, uninterested, and selfish as ever.. i know if u reading this, u are one of them.. why? i ask u? whats ur problem eh? why dun u bother to understand me? even try? just take me for granted, just as i show myself to be.. am sick of keeping ppl happy, i feel like i will murder someone soon, am turning into an insomniac, all i do i waste time, and do nothing. i have stopped attending tutorials! i try study a bit, doesnt work out. am eating irregularly, am eating crap, just bought an ipod which is the only reason to be alive right now, coz am dying. ipod made me broke altogether, so no money! am sick of taking wrong turns in lfe, am sick of making frens and then breaking off, am also sick of making efforts to maintain the frneships. why do i have to do everything? all efforts gone waste. am sick of the food here, cant take it anymore, am sick of feeling sick all the time.. i fall ill so often these days, am not taking care of myself, coz m sick of making an efffort to take care of myself, have become as lazy as i cud ever be, as procrastinating as anyone can be.. restless
am making reckless decisions, asking right questions to right ppl at the wrong time, am disappointing lots of ppl.. within one week, i have been in so many situations where i almost lost my frenship with people coz of what i said or did.. but u know what, i cant help it.. i cant help it coz i dun care anymore.. all i want is some peace, some stability, some relief..my peace of mind is important, and if u think am being selfish, am sorry! all i want is someone who doesnt give a damn to wat i am but likes me coz of who i am.. i dun eve feel like re reading this blog.. i dun wanna know what i have written. ignore all of the above, strictly for my letting it ot purpose. do not ask me later why i wrote all this.. coz i dun know! i wish i cud write a happy blog sometime..
posted by Rohan at 5:31 AM
1 Comments:
Its not bad to tk care of urself or to have 2 many friends, its just bad to expect anything from anyone in this selfish world. U don't be disheartened Iam there wid u! Cause i've been there & done all to mend all that! Been of no use.Trust me n stop hurting urself!
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